I won't know for sure how the embabies are doing until tomorrow morning. eeeep! I've noticed my heart is skipping more beats these days with anticipation and a hefty dose of anxiety too.
I'm scared. I'm scare of what's to come...of what may happen...or not happen. I had acupuncture today which helped calm me a bit. I plan on listening to some meditation tonight and on the way down to the appt.
Here's to the 2WW and PUPOville!!! I'll catch you all on the other side...Happy Friday everyone and I hope you all have lovely, relaxing three day weekends!
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Monday, August 29, 2011
Next hoop cleared
Well we cleared the next hurdle and are ready for what is to come. The lining looked great on Friday and we are ready to move forward to thawing some embabies!!
We are going to start with 5 and see how they do. Depending on how they thaw and grow we will decide how many to put back the morning of the transfer. I will call that morning to see how things are looking and we'll go from there. If all looks good we'll make the trek and put back 1 or 2 if they are good quality. If they aren't looking all that great they'll keep growing them to see who makes it to blast and then transfer back 1 or 2 on day 5.
I start progesterone supps tonight along with the estrogen I'm already taking.
With all we've had going on my mind hasn't really been focusing on this cycle which can be a good thing. But I have definitely been emotionally scattered. Losing a parent is such a surreal and transforming thing. I never thought I'd be having to deal with this kind of thing until I was much older and they had chances to be grandparents.
But I can truly say I'm getting excited now that I can really see the possibility of giving my mom her first grandchild. The joy that it will bring to her life is something I can not wait to see!
We are going to start with 5 and see how they do. Depending on how they thaw and grow we will decide how many to put back the morning of the transfer. I will call that morning to see how things are looking and we'll go from there. If all looks good we'll make the trek and put back 1 or 2 if they are good quality. If they aren't looking all that great they'll keep growing them to see who makes it to blast and then transfer back 1 or 2 on day 5.
I start progesterone supps tonight along with the estrogen I'm already taking.
With all we've had going on my mind hasn't really been focusing on this cycle which can be a good thing. But I have definitely been emotionally scattered. Losing a parent is such a surreal and transforming thing. I never thought I'd be having to deal with this kind of thing until I was much older and they had chances to be grandparents.
But I can truly say I'm getting excited now that I can really see the possibility of giving my mom her first grandchild. The joy that it will bring to her life is something I can not wait to see!
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
The Circle of Life
Sorry I haven't updated. Reason being the day after retrieval my dad lost his battle with Alzheimer's Disease. This has been a whirlwind journey through IF in general for sure and to add that on top of it just leaves us speechless.
The good news is the retrieval went really well! We ended up getting 14 eggs!!!! This totally took us by surprise as we were thinking the most we would get would be 10 or 12. The polyp was also removed and all is well so far with that.
Here comes the "circle of life" part. Literally 35 minutes after my dad passed the clinic called to say that 10 eggs had fertilized and we have 10 frozen embryos!!! I was very moved by that news never mind my already emotional state. One life comes to a close and potentially one or two more begin. Amazing how life works isn't it?
I've since then gone for my baseline for the FET and began taking estrogen last Friday. I go in for a lining check on the 26th. If all looks good I'll start the progesterone and we'll do the transfer on 9/2. I asked the RE about how many we're going to defrost and he wanted to wait to discuss that at my next appt. I'm thinking let's start with 5 and see how it goes. Any thoughts?
The good news is the retrieval went really well! We ended up getting 14 eggs!!!! This totally took us by surprise as we were thinking the most we would get would be 10 or 12. The polyp was also removed and all is well so far with that.
Here comes the "circle of life" part. Literally 35 minutes after my dad passed the clinic called to say that 10 eggs had fertilized and we have 10 frozen embryos!!! I was very moved by that news never mind my already emotional state. One life comes to a close and potentially one or two more begin. Amazing how life works isn't it?
I've since then gone for my baseline for the FET and began taking estrogen last Friday. I go in for a lining check on the 26th. If all looks good I'll start the progesterone and we'll do the transfer on 9/2. I asked the RE about how many we're going to defrost and he wanted to wait to discuss that at my next appt. I'm thinking let's start with 5 and see how it goes. Any thoughts?
Monday, July 25, 2011
Follie update
So I forgot to mention the GOOD thing about the delay in our cycle. The good thing is that we will hopefully be doing the transfer right around the same time as a good friend. So we'll be in our 2ww together! Or at least close to it. Yay!
Now for the latest follie report: It looks like I've got 12 good size follies growing, but not quite as big as the RE would like to see. They range from 14-16. So I'm going to stim tonight. Do one more Ganirelix shot tomorrow and then trigger tomorrow night. The ER will be on Thurs. along with the polyp removal. Yipeee!!!
I gotta tell ya, I'm ready for the ER. My ovaries are talking to me for sure! Overall I'm feeling pretty good just more tired than usual and achy in the abdomen.
Crossing my fingers all goes well over the next few days and my E2 levels stay where they are supposed to. Right now they're a little elevated but not too much that won't allow me to stim one more day. Yay!
Now for the latest follie report: It looks like I've got 12 good size follies growing, but not quite as big as the RE would like to see. They range from 14-16. So I'm going to stim tonight. Do one more Ganirelix shot tomorrow and then trigger tomorrow night. The ER will be on Thurs. along with the polyp removal. Yipeee!!!
I gotta tell ya, I'm ready for the ER. My ovaries are talking to me for sure! Overall I'm feeling pretty good just more tired than usual and achy in the abdomen.
Crossing my fingers all goes well over the next few days and my E2 levels stay where they are supposed to. Right now they're a little elevated but not too much that won't allow me to stim one more day. Yay!
Sunday, July 24, 2011
A mind of its own
We went down to have our first u/s and things were looking really good. I've got 10 follies growing and all at good sizes between 10-12mm. Then the RE took a look at my lining. As soon as he began scanning I new something wasn't right. I've seen enough of the inside of my uterus to know what it should look like at this stage. Instead of a lovely straight line there was a circular form in the middle. I also knew something wasn't right when the RE made a short "hm" sound as he continued to examine the blob. He told me what he thought it was and did a sonohysterogram right there to confirm his suspicions.
So I've decided my uterus has a mind of its own and likes to F*** things up just for the fun of it. First a septum, then a phantom pregnancy and now....wait for it.....a 2cm polyp. That's right, my independent uterus has decided to grow a polyp and delay this cycle. Mr. Bags has decided to name it John Goodman. Why do you ask? It just came to him..."IVF: The musical...staring John Goodman as the polyp" winner of 47 Tony's (one for each month we've been trying)...all we can do it try to laugh at this point right? Ha!
Now for the rest of the story....so I'm continuing to stim until today and will go back down for another u/s tomorrow. At that point the RE will determine if I need to stim one more day and then when to trigger. We'll have the ER either on Wed. or Thur.. During the ER he will remove the polyp. All the eggs retrieved will be fertilized and they will do a "freeze all". After that I'll have to wait a month to heal and get my period. Then we will do an FET hopefully at the end of Aug. or early Sept.
Needless to say we were both really disappointed and thoroughly pissed at my uterus, but it was just a reminder that as much as we are trying to control this process we are NOT in control and there is a reason for this happening. There have been a couple small silver linings that have come out of this so far. One good and one not so good.
I believe I mentioned before that my father has Alzheimer's. We placed him in a facility about a month ago and he has since experienced a rapid decline. In fact I have a feeling he'll probably be leaving us within the next few weeks. So in light of the inevitable stress that is going to cause, it's prob good that I won't be in a 2ww when/if that happens.
Life forages on...as we are trying to create one...one will be ending. Ironic isn't it?
So I've decided my uterus has a mind of its own and likes to F*** things up just for the fun of it. First a septum, then a phantom pregnancy and now....wait for it.....a 2cm polyp. That's right, my independent uterus has decided to grow a polyp and delay this cycle. Mr. Bags has decided to name it John Goodman. Why do you ask? It just came to him..."IVF: The musical...staring John Goodman as the polyp" winner of 47 Tony's (one for each month we've been trying)...all we can do it try to laugh at this point right? Ha!
Now for the rest of the story....so I'm continuing to stim until today and will go back down for another u/s tomorrow. At that point the RE will determine if I need to stim one more day and then when to trigger. We'll have the ER either on Wed. or Thur.. During the ER he will remove the polyp. All the eggs retrieved will be fertilized and they will do a "freeze all". After that I'll have to wait a month to heal and get my period. Then we will do an FET hopefully at the end of Aug. or early Sept.
Needless to say we were both really disappointed and thoroughly pissed at my uterus, but it was just a reminder that as much as we are trying to control this process we are NOT in control and there is a reason for this happening. There have been a couple small silver linings that have come out of this so far. One good and one not so good.
I believe I mentioned before that my father has Alzheimer's. We placed him in a facility about a month ago and he has since experienced a rapid decline. In fact I have a feeling he'll probably be leaving us within the next few weeks. So in light of the inevitable stress that is going to cause, it's prob good that I won't be in a 2ww when/if that happens.
Life forages on...as we are trying to create one...one will be ending. Ironic isn't it?
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Here we go again....
As I promised, here come the updates! First off I want to send a big shout out to my FT girls. The trip back East to hook up with you ladies was amazing and I am thankful everyday for you both in my life. I had a blast getting to know you all the better, exploring the city, eating amazing food, and just plain laughing with you! I'm excited for your upcoming next steps and sending monster monkey vibes!!! : P
After returning home we hit the ground running with getting this cycle organized and moving. It was a bit stressful trying to figure out the funding and getting the meds on time, but we did it and we're here!! Had my baseline on Friday and everything was good to go. Went over the med administration with the coordinator which just about put Mr. Bags under the table, but he made it through! Although he won't have to administer anything ( no PIO shots here!) he still gets queasy even with the mention of a needle, hehe. Good thing I have an iron stomach!
I began the mini-Ganirelix shots this AM and will begin Menopur and Brevelle tomorrow. I'm a little intimidated by the "mixing" and administering, but I'm up for the challenge. This is my first time dealing with syringes and med bottles so I'm a bit of a newb at this. The trials shots were all administered with the pen which was so easy! Just dial in an shoot up! This new procedure has me screwing things on and off and drawing up water into powder and mixing and yada, yada, yada! Hope I don't screw it up!
Bottom line: we're both excited to get this process started and are hopeful once again. Belly bruises here I come!
After returning home we hit the ground running with getting this cycle organized and moving. It was a bit stressful trying to figure out the funding and getting the meds on time, but we did it and we're here!! Had my baseline on Friday and everything was good to go. Went over the med administration with the coordinator which just about put Mr. Bags under the table, but he made it through! Although he won't have to administer anything ( no PIO shots here!) he still gets queasy even with the mention of a needle, hehe. Good thing I have an iron stomach!
I began the mini-Ganirelix shots this AM and will begin Menopur and Brevelle tomorrow. I'm a little intimidated by the "mixing" and administering, but I'm up for the challenge. This is my first time dealing with syringes and med bottles so I'm a bit of a newb at this. The trials shots were all administered with the pen which was so easy! Just dial in an shoot up! This new procedure has me screwing things on and off and drawing up water into powder and mixing and yada, yada, yada! Hope I don't screw it up!
Bottom line: we're both excited to get this process started and are hopeful once again. Belly bruises here I come!
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Update
Sorry I've been MIA. Right after getting into summer break I ended up going out of town where I had limited internet access.
Currently I'm in a natural 2ww, but really just waiting for AF to come so we can get this ball rolling again. That's right...after that nightmarish cycle that just ended I'm ready to go back for more! Isn't it funny how soon you forget when your eyes are on the prize. Plus, since Mr. Baggs and I are off of work until the latter part of August we figured now is a good time to go for it. Less stress and more time to drive the 2 1/2 hours (one-way) to the clinic back and forth! Woohooo!
Depending on when AF comes, which I'm expecting in the next few days, I'll go down for my baseline and start BCP's. I'm kind of excited about this since now I've been through it and know (for the most part) what to expect. The PA I was working closely with also commented that my body was definitely "turned on" so that's a good thing!
I'm just hoping the timing works out well so I can get my baseline before I head off to the east coast! I'll be heading out there for five days to hook up with some lovely women I met on Fertile Thoughts. We've been in contact and close for the last two years and I couldn't have gotten through these last two years without them. Can't wait to see them!
I'll keep you posted as to when I get my baseline. Hope you all are well out there! I'll be visiting soon...
xoxo, Cherm
Currently I'm in a natural 2ww, but really just waiting for AF to come so we can get this ball rolling again. That's right...after that nightmarish cycle that just ended I'm ready to go back for more! Isn't it funny how soon you forget when your eyes are on the prize. Plus, since Mr. Baggs and I are off of work until the latter part of August we figured now is a good time to go for it. Less stress and more time to drive the 2 1/2 hours (one-way) to the clinic back and forth! Woohooo!
Depending on when AF comes, which I'm expecting in the next few days, I'll go down for my baseline and start BCP's. I'm kind of excited about this since now I've been through it and know (for the most part) what to expect. The PA I was working closely with also commented that my body was definitely "turned on" so that's a good thing!
I'm just hoping the timing works out well so I can get my baseline before I head off to the east coast! I'll be heading out there for five days to hook up with some lovely women I met on Fertile Thoughts. We've been in contact and close for the last two years and I couldn't have gotten through these last two years without them. Can't wait to see them!
I'll keep you posted as to when I get my baseline. Hope you all are well out there! I'll be visiting soon...
xoxo, Cherm
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