A mind of its own

We went down to have our first u/s and things were looking really good. I've got 10 follies growing and all at good sizes between 10-12mm. Then the RE took a look at my lining. As soon as he began scanning I new something wasn't right. I've seen enough of the inside of my uterus to know what it should look like at this stage. Instead of a lovely straight line there was a circular form in the middle. I also knew something wasn't right when the RE made a short "hm" sound as he continued to examine the blob. He told me what he thought it was and did a sonohysterogram right there to confirm his suspicions.

So I've decided my uterus has a mind of its own and likes to F*** things up just for the fun of it. First a septum, then a phantom pregnancy and now....wait for it.....a 2cm polyp. That's right, my independent uterus has decided to grow a polyp and delay this cycle. Mr. Bags has decided to name it John Goodman. Why do you ask? It just came to him..."IVF: The musical...staring John Goodman as the polyp" winner of 47 Tony's (one for each month we've been trying)...all we can do it try to laugh at this point right? Ha!

Now for the rest of the story....so I'm continuing to stim until today and will go back down for another u/s tomorrow. At that point the RE will determine if I need to stim one more day and then when to trigger. We'll have the ER either on Wed. or Thur.. During the ER he will remove the polyp. All the eggs retrieved will be fertilized and they will do a "freeze all". After that I'll have to wait a month to heal and get my period. Then we will do an FET hopefully at the end of Aug. or early Sept.

Needless to say we were both really disappointed and thoroughly pissed at my uterus, but it was just a reminder that as much as we are trying to control this process we are NOT in control and there is a reason for this happening. There have been a couple small silver linings that have come out of this so far. One good and one not so good.

I believe I mentioned before that my father has Alzheimer's. We placed him in a facility about a month ago and he has since experienced a rapid decline. In fact I have a feeling he'll probably be leaving us within the next few weeks. So in light of the inevitable stress that is going to cause, it's prob good that I won't be in a 2ww when/if that happens.

Life forages on...as we are trying to create one...one will be ending. Ironic isn't it?