Sorry I didn't get to post the results right away. Got home kinda late on Tuesday and was pretty tired. Then last night our Internet decided to be lame. Booooo!
The good news is...everything went great at our second ultrasound! Everything is measuring just as it should be, the yolk sac looks good, the placenta is forming and most importantly we saw the heartbeat!!! It looked strong and beating fast at about 120. It was certainly surreal to say the least and the NP said everything looked "perfect". The experience was much more pleasant than last time and she explained everything wonderfully.
We are 8 weeks and one day today. It's really feeling real now. We are finally starting to experience the joy of this. I'm smiling spontaneously at the thought of future planning and getting chills when I think of what's to come! Our due date is May 23rd...Mr Bag's birthday!
Although I haven't officially heard from the RE's office, the NP released me to make an appt. with my OB. It's scheduled for 11/15 which will be towards the end of 12 weeks.
Still pinching myself even though it's feeling more real everyday.
In the interest of sensitivity and logic. I'll probably be starting a new blog to focus on where this journey is headed. I'll certainly put up a link so you can follow me there if you wish. In the meantime please take whatever you want from what I've written and know that it IS possible to have success on the IF journey! I write that with caution as we still have a long way to go until May but it's a level of success none-the-less. I hope you all are well out there and don't lose hope!!! xoxo
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Thursday, October 13, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
First u/s day
Just wanted to post a quickie on u/s day. We go in early this afternoon for our first u/s after three positive Betas (still weird to write that). I feel like this is the moment of truth. We're either REALLY pg or not. I've been feeling butterflies in my stomach off and on all week and as it's gotten closer can't help but fantasize about the outcome. Mr Bags has been really cute and asking me everyday if I'm hungry and tired. :)
Whatever the results we will survive and hopefully of course will be delighted. If dreams really do come true I hope the one I had the other night does. I dreamt that they saw the little bean in there and it was eating! (maybe because I've been eating so much :) ) Very strange indeed but a good sign I hope!
I'll update later this evening with the results....eeeeek!
Whatever the results we will survive and hopefully of course will be delighted. If dreams really do come true I hope the one I had the other night does. I dreamt that they saw the little bean in there and it was eating! (maybe because I've been eating so much :) ) Very strange indeed but a good sign I hope!
I'll update later this evening with the results....eeeeek!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Presence and Absence
Over this past week and a half we've been floating through our day still trying to wrap our brains around whether this is really happening or not. Because of the disappointments we've faced in the past we are hesitant to jump up and down yet. That's part of IF I suppose...it sort of robs you of that assured excitement; being able to POAS and run to show your DH that it worked after you've been trying for a few months; being able to just call up your OB and make an appointment for your first exam. Instead we have a feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop and for someone to tell us....sorry not this time...again.
Mr Bags came up with a great analogy the other day while we were discussing our feelings about this last week and a half. He told me that what he's feeling is compared to how he felt about the Gia.nts winning the Wor.ld Series. At first he just couldn't believe it and after being so disappointed time and time again he felt like he didn't quite have the presence of joy, but there was the absence of heartbreak. Once he had some time to let it sink in and after reliving the great moments from the final games, he finally could feel that "Joy" and celebrate. He is having that same experience now accept on a MUCH bigger scale. I told him he described what I am feeling too.
Once we pass our first and second u/s; further still (hopefully) reach that 12 week mark and ultimately when hold that baby in our arms we will be able to finally experience the "joy" of this good news and celebrate all that we have been striving for in these last 4 1/2 years. By the time this baby comes it will have been 5 years. I know for some it has been longer and for some shorter...I suppose it's all relative to your situation and perspective. Where ever you are I hope your dreams of becoming a parent come true very soon and that you can find the joy in it sooner that you think...
Mr Bags came up with a great analogy the other day while we were discussing our feelings about this last week and a half. He told me that what he's feeling is compared to how he felt about the Gia.nts winning the Wor.ld Series. At first he just couldn't believe it and after being so disappointed time and time again he felt like he didn't quite have the presence of joy, but there was the absence of heartbreak. Once he had some time to let it sink in and after reliving the great moments from the final games, he finally could feel that "Joy" and celebrate. He is having that same experience now accept on a MUCH bigger scale. I told him he described what I am feeling too.
Once we pass our first and second u/s; further still (hopefully) reach that 12 week mark and ultimately when hold that baby in our arms we will be able to finally experience the "joy" of this good news and celebrate all that we have been striving for in these last 4 1/2 years. By the time this baby comes it will have been 5 years. I know for some it has been longer and for some shorter...I suppose it's all relative to your situation and perspective. Where ever you are I hope your dreams of becoming a parent come true very soon and that you can find the joy in it sooner that you think...
Monday, September 12, 2011
10dp3dt
(oops! I made a mistake and put 12dp3dt instead of 10dt3dt in the title initially. I was thinking in terms of DPO. Sorry if that was confusing. :) )
First of all thank you all for your crossed fingers and well wishes! It means a lot and keeps me going!
This was a VERY long day for us. Mr. Bags and I decided to hear the news together so we could just be there for each other whether it was to celebrate or console. We also decided to go to our favorite ocean view park to hear the news. It couldn't have been a more perfect, beautiful day. Clear skies..sun shining....75 degrees with a lovely ocean breeze.
My favorite PA left a message on my phone around 1:30 and we waited until after we dropped our carpoolers off to listen to it. We walked over to a bench, faced the ocean and listened..."Hello, love! I would like to give you the good news in person. So you both need to call me so I can give you the very exciting good news..congratulations!" Needless to say we both began grinning from ear to ear and I cried!
So we called and of course she was with a patient so we had to wait about another 15 minutes for her to call us back. We finally connected for her to tell us that the beta is 24. I asked if that was a good number and she said it was average at this stage so I'm definitely PG!
Now that fateful second beta looms. As you know last time it didn't bring good news, but at least this time we've learned our big lesson so we're cautiously excited and waiting with bated breath until Wednesday afternoon. I think for good luck we'll go back to that beautiful place and come what may we'll at least have a gorgeous view to take in.
First of all thank you all for your crossed fingers and well wishes! It means a lot and keeps me going!
This was a VERY long day for us. Mr. Bags and I decided to hear the news together so we could just be there for each other whether it was to celebrate or console. We also decided to go to our favorite ocean view park to hear the news. It couldn't have been a more perfect, beautiful day. Clear skies..sun shining....75 degrees with a lovely ocean breeze.
My favorite PA left a message on my phone around 1:30 and we waited until after we dropped our carpoolers off to listen to it. We walked over to a bench, faced the ocean and listened..."Hello, love! I would like to give you the good news in person. So you both need to call me so I can give you the very exciting good news..congratulations!" Needless to say we both began grinning from ear to ear and I cried!
So we called and of course she was with a patient so we had to wait about another 15 minutes for her to call us back. We finally connected for her to tell us that the beta is 24. I asked if that was a good number and she said it was average at this stage so I'm definitely PG!
Now that fateful second beta looms. As you know last time it didn't bring good news, but at least this time we've learned our big lesson so we're cautiously excited and waiting with bated breath until Wednesday afternoon. I think for good luck we'll go back to that beautiful place and come what may we'll at least have a gorgeous view to take in.
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